Monday, June 13, 2011

Dear Old Hev,...

Growing is always needed whether it be physical or spiritual growth. Yesterday I heard a song by Nicki Minaj  from her album Pink Friday called "Dear Old Nicki". As I listened to the song it was about her talking to her old self wanting her to come back but knowing she has changed and Old Nicki wont be coming back. Today I can relate to that song and there is a lot I can say to Old Hev.

Dear Old Hev,

         You will never be forgotten because you will always be apart of me. Hev you did good finding your way and ignoring all the naysayers. When nobody was your friend and you were avoided by others you kept your head up. You still pursued to love Christ in spite of adversity. I still admire your strength. You had one little boy that's now seven. Look at you thought you couldn't be a good mother. Jasiyah, your oldest he is doing fine. You taught him well in the ways of The Lord. Now he is teaching his little brothers. Things you prayed to happen are existing. God has heard all of your prayers. Your parents came through and understand you will be ok. I don't prove my self to nobody no more...the fight is over. Your sisters and friends may not be the same circle but, all are well. I know you believed in keeping everyone together but, your job is done now. The long locks are a now a short fro. I know you loved the long hair but it had to go. No more flowers in the hair.I have matured in fashion and refined my look. My spirit has grown and the name has changed. I'm more humble but confidence remains to grow. I look for you sometimes and I see you in passing. I just wanted you to know I miss you . I'm moving on but your not forgotten. I'll never say good bye ...but always later.